It was a rude shock when I discovered I was pregnant again. My baby was about six months going on seven months, very active, so cute, spurting new teeth and in very good health and I was back to my pre-pregnancy weight, and loosing more weight each week (thanks to my new job function), I could see the admiration in my husbands eyes when he looked at me, I mean life was what I wanted it. But something was missing…My period (OMG).
Fast forward 10 months later (that should be last week), I’ve had a beautiful baby boy, returned back to work, but this time not feeling beautiful. This is because I am not loosing the pregnancy weight as quickly as I would like, not as strong as I was the first time, my belly is all over the place and a whole lot of other reasons why I’m just not feeling beautiful.
So last week Wednesday, a male customer I was attending to told me in the course of our conversation that I looked very beautiful, so tall and well proportioned. He literally said it in almost those words and more. Brethren, I was high… you don’t know how much those words meant to me at that moment. What is funny is, my husband told me few days before that I was so blessed to look the way I did after two babies, I gushed when he said it, I loved that he said it and loved him even more for his sensitivity, but a part of me felt he probably said it to make me feel good about myself because I looked in th mirror and all I saw was a big fat me.
I’m currently studying Love in the bible, and it’s making me see the way God expects me to see Him, myself and other people around me. I can see that its okay to not be so assured all the time, I see that how people see me is very important, but how I see myself is the most important of all. The struggle that goes on within us about who and what we perceive our self to be is very important because it ultimately shapes how we respond to everything and everyone around us. How God sees us will never change, He already said, “He has made everything beautiful and appropriate in its time…” (AMP). Which is why to see that beauty and appreciate just how complete we are, we need to look into Gods word because that is where the essence of who we are is formed. Its just like God said in 2 Corinthians 3:18, And we all, with unveiled face, continually seeing as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are progressively being transformed into His image from (one degree of) glory to (even more) glory, which comes from the Lord, (who is) the Spirit (AMP).
You see, if how God sees us is what we see, it wouldn’t matter how people see us.